What? I have to go to work tomorrow? Makeup is going to go on my face? I wonder if any of my maternity clothes still fit me. Getting dressed tomorrow will certainly be interesting.
Instead of a victory lap finishing up my bed rest, I'm sort of sliding into the end with some war wounds and dirt on my face. I can only be described as a hot mess for these past few days - a hot, crying mess. We learned about emotional sign posts during labor in our childbirth class, and considering that I'm having a very long, very drawn out "latent phase," or phase 1, I guess I'm experiencing some extra sign posts along the way. Mainly, self doubt, anxiety, and extreme emotions. Thankfully, my mom came down today and yesterday to help with some household stuff and to talk me down.
I am celebrating my last day with a Gossip Girl marathon. I needed something mindless, entertaining, and with pretty people, to offset the images I see in the mirror everyday. I can't believe I never realized that I had only seen the first season! Netflix goldmine!
* I forgot to finish this yesterday because I had an emotional melt down right around dinner time (second of the day). Harrison and I had a much needed talk and then he brought me a milkshake from In n Out, so at least the day ended well. 35 week update incoming - from the office.
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